A bit of yet another setback.......

I have been patiently waiting to get into a place in Quincy, MA near where I live for treatment of my BPD and after waiting two weeks I get a call with them telling me there was some kind of miscommunication between my old doctor and them so I would have to 3-6 weeks more for treatment and I tried to hold my anger inside but failed and ended up swearing and yelling at the therapist out of frustration and end up telling her to blank herself and I would find another place then I called my PCP bawling, nice switch from red hot anger to despair and sobbing gotta love BPD, and they were very nice and said they would do what they could to help me with a referral and today I called a place I am familiar with in my area but as luck would have the intake person was not there today............errrrrrrrr!!! I am binge drinking right now probably not a good thing. I know it will get better I always have hope and faith.